Friday, 22 December 2017

🎄 2017 - BLOGMAS DAY 22 🎄

"Some people are born for Halloween, and some are just counting the days until Christmas."
- Stephen Graham Jones

To be honest, 2017 has been one hell of a year. At the beginning, I thought this was going to be my year but it actually turned out to be one of the worst years I've had so far. This is not going to be the most christmassy posts in this Blogmas series but I just wanted to write down how my 2017 went.

The first few months of the year, actually the first half of the year, went pretty well. I had a lovely birthday, I celebrated Valentine's Day with the "love of my life", we went to London together, I graduated high school and got my A-levels. I started my traineeship in September and really got into everything; living on my own, going to work every day and just living by myself.

Then something in me sparked - and not in a good way. I straight forward came down from my "high" and fell flat on my face, hard. I realised the traineeship with the bank just isn't the right thing for me and I wanted to do something else, my boyfriend broke up with me for his friends and my mental health is in a state worse than ever. I had to take two weeks off and go see my parents because I couldn't handle being all by myself in my flat - although I have a cat now and she keeps me great company, that wasn't enough, I needed someone to talk to.
Of course, my family has been so supportive all this time and I'm so glad they're not mad or disappointed because of my decision to quit the traineeship and start doing something else.

I'm at sea at the moment, primarily because this definitely isn't the way I had planned things to go, especially with my now ex-boyfriend. I just wanted everything to work out perfectly fine with us and with everything in general but I know you can't plan life and everything seems to happen for a reason.

However, to get some good news in here as well, I got the chance to switch my traineeship to a beauty shop in Berlin and it started at the beginning of December. It is, by far, the most amazing thing I've ever done in my life. I've never been happier with a decision and every evening I could cry from happiness because at least this worked out so incredibly well!

Now I just need to get my mental health back on track and find me a new someone to love because I'm lonely af and I hate that... 

Well yeah, that's been my 2017 and I can't say I'm happy with how this year developed. I so desperately hope that 2018 is going to be much better...

How's your year been? x


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